New Myeloma Blog

I found another new blog today. Jan is from Florida and has had a SCT and now relapsed on Revlimid. I've added the address to the links.

Happy Father's Day
(photo June 29, 2008)

Memorial Day

Memorial day is tomorrow. I went to the cemetery today to beat the rush. Richard's stone looks nice. If you look close, you can see me taking the picture reflected in the glare off of the stone.

We never talked about a headstone before he died, so I did this one on my own with the help of my daughter Erin. It's a costly venture, but I think it turned out well.

What determines cost the most is the shipping distance of the raw stone to the monument maker. Laser engraving can put a reproduction of any photo or any other image you want on the stone. So many choices!

I liked the baseball and the symbolism of home plate.

Happy Memorial Day.

Good By Toonces

I killed my cat Toonces today, or rather, I had her euthanized..the result is the same. She was 19 years old and was having trouble walking. It was her time.

Richard used to joke about who would die first, Richard or the cat. The cats wins I guess.

I just couldn't stay with her when they gave her the medication. I stayed with my other cat Judy and the feelings were just too intense. I feel the same for Toonces. I wonder why the death of a pet is so upsetting? I cried more for Toonces and Judy than for Richard.

The grieving for him goes on, it's like a weight on my head all the time.

I don't know if I'll get another cat. I won't likely get another husband. He's not replaceable.

Toonces has gone to the Rainbow Bridge. Maybe she's with Richard now.

Which way to go?

I've been trying to decide what direction to take with the blog. It's hard to pull away when myeloma has been my obsession for 10 years, but that is my ultimate goal.

I continue to follow the mailing lists and it's more intense when I read about recent deaths members Dan Johnson and Bill Gunther. So many deaths in those ten years.

So, I will leave the blog up for awhile and post from time to time. Thanks to you all.

Out Walking

I took a walk today around Cedar Lake. I'm so out of shape, but the
weather was great.

Happy Easter

Legacy

It's been two weeks and Richard's death still seems unreal. It's like he's just gone shopping and will be back anytime.

Many former students came to the funeral home. Many have sent cards. So many told me that he influenced them to become teachers.

One former student who is now a teacher wrote:

"My deepest sympathies and prayers for the Krone family. Mr. Krone was one of the most influential men I have known, and is the reason why I pursued a career in education. I try to remember the life lessons he taught us, along with the school lessons. He will be missed, and will never be forgotten. My wife and I send our deepest condolences and prayers to the family and friends. "

These students/teachers are Richard's legacy.